Ina Garten is opening up about a dark part of her past.
In her upcoming memoir Be Ready When Luck Happens, which drops Oct. 1, the celebrity chef shared insight into her details her strained relationship with her late father Charles Rosenberg, who was a surgeon, and she recently gave insight into growing up with him.
“I was terrified,” Ina told People in an interview published Sept. 4. “I was physically afraid of my dad. I literally remember thinking he would kill me if I did something.”
The 76-year-old—who also grew up with older brother Ken—shared that her mother, Florence Rosenberg, wasn’t a source of comfort either. As she noted to People, “My mother just was unsupportive.”
In fact, Ina—who previously cited her childhood as why she never had kids of her own—admitted that she spent a great deal of her upbringing isolating herself.
“If there’s a threat of violence, you’re always afraid, even when it’s not happening,” she added. “So I basically spent my entire childhood in my bedroom with a door closed.”